It's Mine!

It's innevitable...every single day there is an argument in my house over toys. (argument...hmmm, well, it's really like a brawl) I follow the screams and eventually find the source. Two little boys fighting over a toy...one clutching it like it's the last toy on earth and the other trying to rip it from his hands! I'm ALWAYS at a loss of how to handle this situation...."Who had it first?" That's the first question ...and since only one of the two boys can talk I'm always hearing that the 4 yr old is the one who had it first...of course. :) In reality they are both at fault...greed and selfish desires. Not a good mixture. Anyway, every single time these 'fights' occur I get so irritated. Why can't they just share? Why can't my 4 yr old quit taking everything from the 2 yr old? And why can't the 2 yr old share back? I keep explaining and teaching my kids over and over again. Why don't they just 'do right'? Having children has definitely been sanctifying...VERY. Every time I get frustrated with my kids I can picture God looking at me as a child when I do the SAME sinful things over and over and over again. I can picture Him saying, "here we go again, Katie. Haven't you learned by now?" "Why are you doing this again?" Although instead of toys it's the way I talk to my husband or coveting someone else's things or pride or not wanting to let go of something I hold so dear and precious because "it's mine!"...I could go on and on. Why do I do it over and over and over?? SIN. Because of my sin I see my need for a Savior....THE SAVIOR. Even though I am a christian I still sin. I will not be free from it until I am made whole one day. Until then, every time I get irritated by my kids fighting, etc I can be reminded of my own sin. A little deep, yes, but sometimes I need to write these things down in order to further instill it in my mind and heart. I need to be reminded of God's word and what He would have me do. 'I have stored up Your words in my heart, that I might not sin against You' -Psalm 119:11